The Perfect Illusion

Don’t be too quick to judge

Get off your high horse!

My, my! Someone’s snappy today..

What a snob!

Elitist!

All words/phrases used to describe me.. Why am I these things? Because I don’t want you to see the real me. Just another human being that I am – I find it easier to judge than to trust and easier to accuse than to include. I want to be special – set apart from and above other people… so I build – responses, behaviours, a persona – so that the real me is buried so deep inside that you can’t see. Because if you saw me, you’d realise that I am confused, emotional, prone to making mistakes and afraid of the unknown. Then I’d be vulnerable to you. Because I am afraid that you won’t love me any more.. I’m not special enough, you see.

But now I want to be exposed. Be open to being all that I really am. If you leave, you’d leave the real thing. And if you stay, you’ll get the real thing – not the perfect illusion.

3 thoughts on “The Perfect Illusion

  1. This makes sense to me in soooo many ways. I can realte to myself and a few people around me better. Thank you 🙂

  2. hmmmm…
    i love yr willingness to be vulnerable..
    that comes from an inner strength..

    and.. the real aspect of us is always beautiful..
    the essence..
    the persona.. the shadow – needs to be loved also..
    to the extent we can

    question i must ask is- will u leave them if they leave you? 😉

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